I'm Tired

I'm tired of being a grass widow. No, not of being The Grass Widow - I'm simply tired of being a real, live one.

I'm tired of having the main portion of my adult married life consist of:

• eating no more than 2 meals a week at the same table as my husband
• not sharing a bed with my husband
• talking to my husband on the phone while he's at work far more than we talk in person

Is this is what marriage is supposed to be? Are we really supposed to spend so few hours together? Sometimes I just don't understand all of this. I don't want life to be like this anymore, and there is no way to stop it. It will never change.

I. am. so. very. tired.